Here come the bullet points!

Without further ado…

  • I saw Star Wars – The Force Awakens on a too-rare date with my wife. I loved it, despite and because of its flaws. It’s Star Wars. No, I’m not going to spoil it.
  • My holidays were pretty fantastic, and included taking the wife to work’s party in San Francisco.
  • Vlogging has been chugging along as well. I’ve started editing the damn things, so who knows where it’ll go from here! YouTube channel is here.
  • I re-read the entire novella yesterday, and contacted the artist that I want to do the cover. It’s time to make those creative decisions that have been impossibly daunting. It’s time to move toward the mountain.
  • I urge you not to make New Year’s resolutions. I urge you to do what makes you happy.

Writing Journal, NSFW

WARNING: This entry contains some adult references, and is Not Safe For Work.  Proceed at your own risk.

What is going through Susan’s mind?

  • Human fear of judgement and reaction from the scars on her arms.
  • Human and vampiric lust. She wants him, and she wants to drink from him.
  • In the back of her mind, she’s pleased with herself at her successful seduction, but worries that it’s another step away from being human.

What next?

  • Leave the shower scene where it is, maybe have her come in covering up her inner arms.
  • Next scene should be the following morning, Adam waking up nude on the couch, no idea where his clothes are.
  • He’ll go over the night before, his exhaustion, her scars, her complete lack of hair, the experience of her cleaning him like it was a holy rite,

WAIT. STOP. This story is told from Susan’s POV, not Adam’s. Let’s flip this around, shall we?

What next?

  • Leave shower scene as it is, maybe have her come in covering up her inner arms.
  • Next scene should be the following sunset, Susan waking up nude and hopeful.
  • She’ll get dressed, going over the night before, his exhaustion, lack of judgement about her scars, his excitement over her complete lack of hair, how he’d seemed to enjoy the cleaning, how they’d ALMOST had sex and/or fed.
  • Find out what Adam had been up to during the day. Made himself at home? Sammy-style research from a laptop that he didn’t have at the end of the last book? Does Susan have a computer in the apartment?
  • What color are Susan’s eyes? Her sister’s? Need to know that for when she meets Adam. What is the sister’s name?
  • The sister has been dreaming about Adam, and will speak to him, but will still be confused. She’ll want to talk about the green cavern and the story writers, not what happened to her compatriots.
  • When they do get her to speak of it, she’ll recount the events haltingly, and she’ll go on a rant about Walter’s eyes, an imbalance of powers, and the demon. It’ll tangent, like conversations do.
  • The sister is on house arrest at her home, and is guarded by several uniformed CPD officers. If they are in the home during this (likely taking notes for the investigation into the murder of three officers), they will certainly react to the strangeness.

What am I trying to accomplish in the next chapter?

  • Continue getting to know Susan.
  • More about her ties to Michigan and John.
  • Introduce Susan’s sister, the woman in Girl Ritual.
  • Expand on the Cavern that showed up in the last book’s epilogue.
  • Reveal to the characters that not only is Walter meddling in this Chicago, but he is physically there searching for the gun.

I’m getting smaller!

Let me first say that I am not on a diet. I am purposefully and willfully still eating what I want to eat. I did not set out to modify my intake in any way whatsoever. Additionally, my only increase in activity is a less-regular-than-I’d-like morning walk. No gym membership, no weights, no exercise machinery or videos.

That said, my Hawaiian shirts are now too big and my tighter pants fit. The previously-comfortable pants now threaten to fall off, even with the belt. Pants that I had no hope of fastening are now snug. My comfortably-loose shirts… I’ve never been able to say that clothes “just hang off of me,” but now I can. I fit into my LiquidWeb polo shirts, which I couldn’t do when I worked there, nor any time between. I’ve dropped about seventeen pounds (I won’t go on my rant about focusing on pounds as a metric of getting healthier… this time).

What’s changed? I’m paying attention to what goes in my mouth, and how much. I’m paying attention to how active I am. As I mentioned before, I’m using MyFitnessPal for the former and FitBit for the latter. Being able to see it and to track it has triggered a change in my behavior.

I’m saying no to seconds, and finding that I dish up less for firsts. When I don’t immediately feel full, instead of getting seconds, I wait a bit to see if I feel satisfied. I drink coffee (black) and water (often with Mio).

None of these choices were conscious. I don’t consider the benefits, weigh the pros and cons, before I make these decisions. Just like when I started tracking my food and added a FitBit to my wish list, these all seem to come from my gut.

I worry, sometimes, that this is a flight of fancy rather than a change in my lifestyle. I really like the results – how I feel, less pain in my knees (noticeable already!), not having the urge to finish the food my kids didn’t eat. If this isn’t a conscious choice, will I backslide as easily as I got into it?

Only time will tell. For now, I really need to get the Hawaiian shirts out of my closet. They look terrible.