Familiar and alien
\nthe combination twists my insides
\nmy heart and my stomach
\nmy eyes and my soul<\/p>\n
I had thought this left in the past
\nI had thought that it would never return
\nto be re-lived
\nThis time, the ice shattered
\nSpilling out liquid fire
\nin wracking sobs<\/p>\n
That is why I’m still bitter
\nshe said
\nbecause I still love them all
\nwounds don’t heal<\/p>\n
I’ve been hurt like this before
\nbut never like that.
\nAlmost exactly like this, in situation
\nbut never like that, afterward.
\nJust the same, in disappointment
\nbut different, in determination.
\nWord for word, in your self-doubt
\nEvery syllable changed, when I shattered.<\/p>\n
Today, my hands gripping the cold
\nmetal spikes
\nby the churning river,
\nI doubted the hope within me.
\nIt felt so dim.<\/p>\n
Nothing between two people
\nis perfect
\nWe’re changed now,
\nbecause of what you did.
\nLess starry-eyed perfect
\nMore earthen reality
\nWe doubt our strengths
\nBut not our desire for
\neach other – forever.<\/p>\n
I will not take my name back
\nfrom you.
\nNot this time.
\nNever forget what I said
\namidst running nose
\ntear-red eyes
\nsob-wheezing breath
\nI cannot forgive again.
\nThis is too much for me to live with
\na second time around.<\/p>\n
Live your love for me
\nevery day and every minute
\nin every step and every word
\nevery action you take.<\/p>\n
Time will prove that you can
\nor that I was wrong, one more time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Familiar and alien the combination twists my insides my heart and my stomach my eyes and my soul I had thought this left in the past I had thought that it would never return to be re-lived This time, the … Continue reading