{"id":2950,"date":"2003-10-29T11:32:00","date_gmt":"2003-10-29T16:32:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/?p=2950"},"modified":"2020-08-28T22:20:36","modified_gmt":"2020-08-29T02:20:36","slug":"a-lot-to-talk-about","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/?p=2950","title":{"rendered":"A lot to talk about."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This weekend was jam-packed with ups and downs and happy and frustrated and all sorts of stuff.<\/p>\n<p>So, I&#8217;m going to post small bits as they come into my head.<\/p>\n<p><lj user=\"chimalis\"> wants to meet with me, and talk.  The goal, so far as I can understand, is so that we can stand to be around each other, but not to regain our friendship.  This, for me, means letting some of the past go.  I have to determine if I can do that (as I&#8217;m notoriously bad for it), if I <i>want<\/i> to do that, and what needs to happen for me to let go.<\/lj><\/p>\n<p>I cannot see a place between hurt-and-bitter and friends while the cause for the hurt-and-bitter remains without closure.  Apparently I&#8217;m bad at cauterizing wounds when I cut off limbs.<\/p>\n<p>My initial reaction was to think of ulterior motives, reasons, goals, etc.  It was a response based on distrust.  If her motives are honest &#8211; and that word came up a lot while <lj user=\"benniferus\"> and I were talking about this &#8211; then I think I can let go of the past.  She&#8217;s not seeking my trust.  She&#8217;s not seeking my friendship.  I guess she&#8217;s seeking the lack of my animosity.<\/lj><\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t pretend that any of this will be easy, on either side.  I&#8217;m a stubborn, bull-headed jerk when it comes to things like this.  There is enough of a possibility of positive outcome to try it.  Always enough hope to try.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This weekend was jam-packed with ups and downs and happy and frustrated and all sorts of stuff. So, I&#8217;m going to post small bits as they come into my head. wants to meet with me, and talk. The goal, so &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/?p=2950\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[],"tags":[34],"class_list":["post-2950","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-livejournal"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/paQnES-LA","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2950","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2950"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2950\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5891,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2950\/revisions\/5891"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2950"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2950"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/davidmcrampton.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2950"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}