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Every time I see pictures like these<\/a>, I get an ache in my chest and think, “Oh, god, what I could do with that place.”<\/lj-cut><\/p>\n

And then I think about what I haven’t done, and haven’t been able to do, with my own home.<\/p>\n

I’m on a bit of an emotional roller coaster today.<\/p>\n

This article relating an anniversary of Pearl Harbor and VJ day with today’s remembrance<\/a> didn’t help much, but I wouldn’t give back reading it for anything in the world.<\/p>\n

LiquidWeb is the best employer that I’ve ever had, I think. But today, I felt trapped and couldn’t get the thought out of my head that I wanted to stop being a computer geek and become a writer for a reason.<\/p>\n

I went outside for a bit when I flipped out on a co-worker for no good reason. Thank goodness for telling me that I needed to take a break. I probably shouldn’t have taken my pipe out with me.<\/small><\/lj><\/p>\n

I don’t know if I can read any more about the obvious lies that are being fed to the American populace, and how easily the populace eats it up, simply because it’s easier than doing a little investigative footwork.<\/p>\n

Also, I’m feeling like a terrible friend lately. I have an extreme amount of guilt relating to the blundering and flailing that I’ve done in regard to ‘s wedding. It will be a miracle when (not if, goddamnit) I get there, dressed to the nines, blinding everyone with my pasty knees and calves, and am finally able to simply be thankful that I was given this place of honor, instead of counting the ways that I could have screwed all of this up if Alex and weren’t on top of it.<\/lj><\/lj><\/p>\n

Also, I don’t remember being flighty. Especially not in the ways that Benny (inebriated, but still) remembers me being flighty. This is cause for concern and for mulling over.<\/p>\n

After a quick scan of the most recent entries of my Friends’ page<\/a>, I am not alone in crankiness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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