Up and down, with a lot of down.

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Yeah, I’ve been up and down. Once more, I feel like I’m out of work. I’m not, and my company will burst into profitability as soon as we get our name out there. That’s it, though. And I just know Dad is going to ask about rent tomorrow, and I’m going to have to say that I will probably need help this month.

Gods, I hate that.

So, I’m in that spot again. That funk, that dismal outlook upon the world, that unjustified feeling of failure.

I have to keep doing things to make sure that I’m not a failure. I have to keep active, keep creating, keep thinking ahead, keep doing things ahead of the people that we’re targeting for our business.

I came out of the first job, and I said to , “I would be one happy fat man if I could do this for the rest of my life.” And it’s true.

Tonight is Easter at ‘s dad’s house, with her family. Tomorrow is Easter with my parentals. I don’t think I’ve celebrated Easter (much less Ostara) for years. It’s so very strange that it’s so big and important this time around. I don’t quite get it.

Horoscope

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TAURUS (April 20-May 20): Who or what will rescue you, Taurus? A divine intervention, perhaps? A sympathetic friend who totally understands you? A teacher who knows exactly what you need at this turning point? I suspect the answer is none of the above. Don’t worry, though, because a brave hero *is* on the way, primed to provide you with an exit, a solution, and a cure. And who is this great deliverer? For a clue, I give you this poem by Simeon Samuel Frug: “No savior from without can come/ To those that live and are enslaved./ Their own messiah they must be,/ And play the savior and the saved.”

Woah.

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I didn’t know there was a community out there. Doesn’t look like there’s a whole lot of good conversation there, though. Maybe I should scan and share pics from past DEMFs. :)

I’m so old.

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Ever had sex that’s so good you hurt your back? So worth the muscle twinges.

Anyway, those that keep up on my slow-ass progress on my novel will be glad to hear that I’m working on it again. It’s been a long time, and this is the first chapter I’ve had any real problem with. Not crossing the line between giving the reader enough information and giving the reader too much information, while introducing the Captain of the Borderland Guard is tricky. Espeically with two strong personalities like Herod and Sebastian/Nemesis.

If you’d like to read (*cough*edit*cough*) the prelude, as well as chapters 1 through 3, and you haven’t yet, drop me a comment and I’ll hook you up. Maybe. ;)

BTW, I’ve switched the files from Word (*flips off Micro$oft*) to rich text format. Easier for me to edit and for you to read. That, and I don’t have to pirate any word processing software if I want to use my wonderful, wonderful mac keyboard.

That’s all for now. Schwa out.

Horoscope

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TAURUS (April 20-May 20): The astrological factors coming to bear on you right now are uproarious yet profound; they’re mischievous, intense, and catalytic. In alignment with this spirit, I’ve composed your horoscope by channeling appropriate bumper sticker slogans. Repeat the following affirmations frequently, Taurus, or print them on pieces of paper and tape them to your back.

“Don’t follow me; I’m following my bliss.”
“I’m not tense — just terribly, terribly alert.”
“I don’t suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.”
“I’m talking to myself — please don’t eavesdrop.”
“Don’t worry — it only seems kinky the first time.”
“Warning: I have an Attitude and I know how to use it.”