Today has been better.

I slept in, and even had a few hours next to . That was nice.

Met up with , , , , , and a couple of her friends for mac & cheese day at Golden Harvest. Good food all around, though I have to remember to sit on the *other* side of so we don’t keep bumping elbows.

Had a good talk with one of my business partners. Had an email from an old consulting company that I worked for asking me to run a web server for him. Good business day as well.

has apologized to me. Things with him are no longer done.

We’ll see what happens.

I just gave a hug that hurt her. I squeezed too hard while she was stretching. Didn’t really know when to stop, I guess. That’s not good.

I’m still filled with rage, but it’s dulled. I’m not sure if that’s not more dangerous than the inferno that was raging through me last night. In explanation, the mocking reached intense and unacceptable levels after Anime last night. and and Jen from 21st were the only ones who didn’t take part.

Huggy was the prime instigator, but Eric, , and Sharee certainly took part. Especially after the line was obviously crossed. Barbs and quips that were designed to get under my skin and wound me, or prove some point, were intermingled with outright mocking. Huggy tried to claim that an idea that I had come up with about the gods mocking me, even after death was his. That I had STOLEN that idea.

I’m trying to decide weather I should go to the Cam game tonight or not. I’ve already told that he won’t be getting a ride there or to work from me.

So, let me summarize.

Huggy – Done. Kaine – Done. Sharee – Upset with, but not a chronic problem enough to be done. Eric – Has already apologized to me.

Today has gone a lot better, and I’ll post about that later.

You know that title, the Mocked One? I’m done with it. It’s gone.

You know that universal law that says it’s okay to mock me? I’m done with it. It’s gone.

You know that idea that I’m ineffectual? I’m done with it. It’s gone.

You know that need that you have to mock me, push me, point out that I’m not in control of my surroundings, when it’s absolutely CLEAR that you’ve crossed all my lines? I’m done with it. It’s gone.

Push me about it, and you’re gone. Plain and simple. Removed from my life. Deleted. Erased. Mud in my boots.

If you’d like to whine about not noticing that you’ve crossed the line, take that dick out of your eye and watch my reactions like you would anyone worth respecting.

Been a little scarce, haven’t I? Heh.

I’m no longer with Eubulus. Full-out Geeks Next Door. The last two days have been spent distributing advertising to grocery stores all over the Lansing area. This will work.

I’ve been posting a poem a day to . Some from the old Dark Eternity site and some from my journal.

I think I should rip more CD’s while I’m waiting to get the logo from one of the co-owners. Must print business cards for us today. Must take advantage of the free time that I’ve got, that they don’t have.

I’d like to voice once again how lucky I am to have in my life. It’s been a stress roller-coaster for the past couple of days, and I’ve been really up and down. From needy to uber-snarky. She’s dealt with me wonderfully, and has made sure I feel loved. I only hope I’m doing as good for her. :)