I feel a bit guilty about the snow outside. I mean, everybody else wants sun and warmth and that sort of thing… and I rejoice at this kind of weather. So I feel a bit guilty.

I have warm tea, though, and that is comforting. Even though the snow is still coming down.

They said they won’t be able to look at my car until later today. Looks like I’ll be taking the bus to class or bumming a ride. Maybe ordering in food, since I’m out of groceries. No, wait, I have chicken. I can make lemon pepper chicken again. Heh. That solves dinner, but I dunno about lunch. Whatever. I’ll figure something out.

I’ll probably spend the rest of this morning on homework, reading Mage books, and finishing a letter to . I should shave, too.

“None of that R&D shit here, we have GUNS!”

My car won’t start. Nor will it take a jump. Not to mention, on this model, the battery is -underneath- the windshield washer fluid tank. So, it’s at the dealership. I’m thinking starter, since the alternator was already replaced since I’ve owned the thing.

It survived the ice storm, though. By the way, while it’s happening, freezing rain is the only winter weather that I don’t like. Once it’s done, it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. But even I won’t go out in it until the roads have been cleared, if I have a choice.

Though, I must say, ‘s play’s opening night was worth the drive. Even worth the turning into an old man while driving. “I know I’m going five under the limit!” Heh.

I’ve got today running over and over in my head, because I got the distinct impression that and were displeased. Let alone the part where Peter fell asleep. Granted, the session focused on Solomon’s character, but I really think that there were plenty of opportunities to get involved. Right now, the characters are all (with the exception of ‘s) interested in going off somewhere private to do most of their meditation and such things. His is about the only one comfortable to show others when he’s talking to himself. Heh. Literally.

The whole day was sleepy. I barely kept awake myself at some points. I ended up taking a nap because of a headache and periodic falling asleep during post-game movie and teasing. Woke up with the same headache I went to bed with.

Now, I’ve slept a ridiculous number of hours during the day, am totally awake, without headache, and stuck at my house. Sometimes I wish I could spin like to get out some of the shit that’s inside. Things and stuff, man.

My creative force craves an audience and approval from said audience. I’m not sure that I deserved the approval today, and it’s playing havoc with my underlying belief that I can do anything I set my mind to, and do it well.

Horoscope

TAURUS (April 20-May 20): The ancient Egyptian creator god Ptah was regarded as a miracle worker, though sometimes he used unconventional means to accomplish his amazing feats. For example, legend held that he defeated a legion of Assyrian marauders with an army of rats. Waiting till the enemy soldiers were asleep, Ptah sent the rats into their camp to gnaw through their bowstrings and shield handles, rendering them defenseless. Can you imagine a way in which you might draw inspiration from the Egyptian god’s methods, Taurus? How could you win a great victory by summoning the help of an influence you usually regard as a pest?

Stalling

I have things to do. I want to get out and flyer. I want to pester until he gives me a haircut. I want to fax my resume to the National City HR department, because they lost their copy of my resume. I want to respond to ‘s letter. I want to double-check my balanced checkbook. I want to organize my blank paper and my class notes into recognizable folders (I hate anything spiral binded… hey, I’m left-handed).

The weather is beautiful outside. Overcast and drizzling. Very nice trench coat weather.

And still I find myself stalling.

Getting things done, once again.

Done yesterday:

  • Deposited check from second GND job.
  • Picked up application for immediate opening for a teller at my bank. Could be interesting.
  • Sent business-card print-out magnet thing back to my mom in the mail.
  • Paid rent.
  • Made and ate lunch.
  • Filled out and turned in application.
  • Went to class.
  • Made and ate dinner
  • Balanced checkbook.

Done today:

  • Ate leftovers from yesterday for lunch.
  • Paid two bills from the huge stack.
  • Laundry. On time even.
  • Marinated hamburger for dinner.
  • Initiated daily checkbook balancing with online banking.

Things to do today:

  • Pick up flyers from .
  • Cook dinner.
  • GND meeting.
  • Homework.

Notes

and : I agree. I’m back being a student at MSU, and I feel upset and disappointed.

: The coward comment was not pointed at you. Homo.

: Am I being condescending?

: Congrats on your review. Bombastic fits well. :)

: The act of leaving a country because of the oppression seems cowardly to me because you’re leaving the bad situation instead of changing it. It could be my extremely old fashioned upbringing, but I sincerely believe that if you call a place home (which you have said you do not, so this does not apply to you) then you make it your home. You fix things that are broken. You make every effort possible to change your home so that it is, indeed, home to you.

Moving to another country reminds me of running away. It reminds me of urban sprawl. And it’s not like the problems aren’t going to follow those who leave.

I am not calling people cowards. I’m glad that this is pissing you off, because it should. All of this pisses me off.

: Thanks for the schweet icon! :)

: Sleep is good. ;)