I almost wish they’d fire me. Then I’d get unemployment and be able to spend my whole day searching for a job. I wouldn’t have to come here and hate so much.

I’m pretty sure that I’m in a trough, as far as my depression/emotion swings are going. A lot of other people I know are too. I recognize the signs. Lack of a desire to get out of bed. Making mental notes to do things (like marinating the pork chops), and not doing them because it’s easier to just sit on the couch. Immediate frustration when things don’t resolve themselves either easily or completely of their own accord. The constant nagging of the lack of companionship.

These are all signs of the gift I’ve inherited. So, in a time with no motivation, how do I motivate myself to fight it?

More mundane stuff later.