The Enterprise rerun was good, but they’re not playing the promised Voyager episode… instead, it’s some UK sci-fi show called Starhunter. The wonders of UPN 18 will never cease.

Real and difficult questions have finally broken through the skin of “I don’t want to think about this” into the realm of “here I am, you don’t have a choice”. What is it that I want? If I receive two job offers, which one will I go for? Should I stay in Lansing, or move to Ann Arbor? Do I need a change of city, of setting, of life? Would wanting to stay in Lansing be real or would it be staying somewhere comfortable and familiar, whether or not it was good for me? What is good for me, and is it the same as what I want?

Painted over all of this in a sickly green translucent is my desperation to have some sort of income, any income whatsoever.