Back to the goal. Move the floaty bits down onto paper so that they’re more real. Summing up the conclusions thus far, and the resultant actions, pending or otherwise:

Full class load is too much.

• Dropped all but the Japanese class.
• Need to finalize sitter for while we’re both at class.

I am depressed.

• Asked for help from the gods.
• Need to apply for Ingham County health plan, as we’ve been denied for Medicaid.
• Need to find a professional to talk to.

Starting my own company is worthwhile.

• Stop doubting yourself, dumbass.
• It’s okay to be idealistic. This is why you have the vision for the company’s future.
• Stop holding back; this is worth putting your all into.

Job hunt.

• Difficult to tell if this is worth it.

Then there’s the kids. When I hide, when I push away, they get a lot of it. They’re the ones that most often ask for attention (positive or negative), so they get rebuffed the most. And, of course, the constant denial just makes them want to try again and sends me farther up the Irritation Crazy Train.