[] Todd kills.

This is part 18 of Todd’s story.


I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave.
Tool, “Sober”

Thunk dropped to his knees and pressed his forehead to the floor. Sheila had never seen Thunk show submission to anyone, let alone in this blatant manner. She took a step away from the Symmetrical Man and bumped into the machine, jostling it. The two remaining jars wobbled on their perches, but didn’t fall. The Symmetrical Man smiled at her, like he had the morning after the party. The fucker looked like a snake.

“Sheila, my sweet lover, my young sacrifice, why do you cower from me? Did I not show you tender embraces and passion beyond what you’d ever known? And you would back away from me, in my own home?” He spread his arms wide in a gesture of innocence and good intent. His face still reminded her of a serpent, but the memories of his muscular form were strong and clear.

From somewhere off in the distance, the sound of glass shattering echoed. It was one instant sound, as if someone had dropped a glass, and then Thunk started screaming. “No! No, no, no! I don’t want it back! You can’t give it back to me!” He stood up, his face painted in terror, and stumbled past the Symmetrical Man. He flailed wildly and tripped as a soft glow filled the center of the warehouse. Todd joined them, but from exactly the opposite side that the Symmetrical Man had approached. Just in front of him hovered a small ball of light. It was just about the size of an orange.

The Symmetrical Man’s eyes darted back and forth between the light and Todd. Thunk was cowering on the floor, still insisting that he didn’t want it back. “There have been many before me, and will be many after me, young man. You, however, don’t fit the job description. You’re not even Scottish!” The Man began to sweat as his eyes continued to dart back and forth.

Todd motioned, and the ball of light moved to his left. Thunk winced as it got nearer. “I am your undoing. I am your antithesis. You provided me with a way to come into being, and your Carnival causes me to continue. I will end you, or I won’t. Do not mistake me for one who wants to take your place.” Todd took a step toward the Symmetrical Man.

The Man snarled at Todd. “My Carnival? Boy, you got the wrong Celestine.” He whirled at Todd, bringing his right leg up in a blur of motion, and kicked Todd in the jaw. Todd fell, rolled, and crumpled into a heap. Sheila screamed Todd’s name, and the Symmetrical Man sneered at them all.

The shattering of glass echoed from the other side of the warehouse. It grew louder, and disbelief replaced contempt on the Symmetrical Man’s face. Row by row, jar by jar, rafter by rafter, empty or full, cracked and broken jars exploded in a hail of tiny shards of glass. The explosions spread, following the rafters as if it were a maze. Finally, all that were left were the two jars rotating slowly on the broken machine. Todd pushed himself to his hands and knees. “I free my friends.”

It came out as barely more than a mumbled comment, but it resounded through the warehouse as if it had been shouted. The jars holding the spoons and the lanyard exploded. One shard, and one only, caught the Symmetrical Man above the eye, opening a small cut. Todd used a crate to pull himself to his feet. “I end you.”

It came out as a quiet command, but once more the warehouse was filled with the declaration. The Symmetrical Man began to glow with frenzied, multicolored light. It writhed through him and coiled over him like an angry python. Slowly, the colors and swirls and clouds and strands of light unraveled from each other. As their ends whipped and tossed, free of their form, they dissipated like fog in sunlight. The more of the outside that fell away, the more of the brighter inside shown through. Both Thunk and Sheila covered their eyes, and cowered until the miniature sun died out.

When it did, Todd was leaning on the crate. He was upright, but one side of his face was swelling up badly. Both Thunk and Sheila stood up. Sheila was staring at Todd in wonder, Thunk in fear. Todd looked at Thunk. “You sure you don’t want that back?” Thunk shook his head and cowered from the orange-sized light that still hovered near Todd. “Fine. Now you work for me.” Todd swept off Ralph’s old hat, caught the light in it, and set it back on his head. He turned to Sheila. “Could you please grab the stuff off the machine? I still think I might pass out. I think he broke my face.”

Thunk offered Todd his shoulder, and Todd leaned on it. Thunk wrapped his arm around Todd as Sheila picked up the journal, the lanyard, and the spoons. They all walked slowly out to the beater. “Todd, what do you know about that man?” Sheila was practically shivering from what had just happened.

“I know that he is dead.” Thunk opened the door for Todd, and he slid into the back seat. Sheila sat in the passenger seat, and Thunk sat in the driver’s seat. He started the car and released the parking brake. Sheila asked shakily, “Where are we going?”

Todd answered from the back seat, “The Carnival.”

Long ago there was a dream,
had to make a choice or two.
Leaving all I loved behind,
for what nobody knew.
Stepped out on the stage, a life
under lights and judging eyes.
Now the applause has died and I
can dream again…
Queensryche, “Anybody Listening?”

[] Todd watches.

This is part 17 of Todd’s story.


images as the bodies burn
seen through my eyes
please don’t make me visualize your pain
images and the sounds of war
seen through my eyes
images of rape and gore
seen through my eyes
images of a shadowed world
please help my god
– Chiasm, “Images”

Todd brought his clunker to a stop on the gravel and crumbling concrete driveway in front of the loading dock. Sheila flung open the passenger door and stormed out of the car. Thunk deftly squirmed out of the back seat, with none of his usual grumblings or protests about small cars. Todd turned off the engine and pulled the parking brake. He slowly got out of the car, letting his gaze wander over the whole building. He closed his eyes for a moment, and took a deep breath in through his nose. He could taste the power here, and it reminded him of burnt microwave popcorn.

A pebble went sailing straight for his head, and he brought his hand up just in time to catch it. “What the FUCK, Todd!” Sheila had a handful of gravel pebbles, and whipped another one at him. “Are you trying to prove some stupid point?!” Her eye makeup was running. She was crying and pissed as hell. “You knew this whole time, and you let me feel guilty for not telling you? You let me wallow in being a shitty girlfriend, and you knew all along?!” She limply threw the rest of the handful at him, and burst into wracking sobs.

“Sheila, what the hell are you talking about?” Todd’s confusion was plain on his face. Thunk was watching them both very carefully. Sheila turned around and stormed off, bawling, into the warehouse. Todd’s mouth hung open, as if he’d been slapped. Thunk kept his calculating look on Todd.

“Why did you bring us to this warehouse, Todd? The Carnival isn’t here. Of all the places in Chicago, why here?” Thunk took out a Helix cigar that he’d stolen from Ralph’s house, bit off the end, and spat it onto the gravel. He clamped it between his teeth and lit it, staring at Todd the whole time. Thunk seemed a lot older than he was.

“There’s something here that I need before we get to the Carnival.” With that, Todd spun around angrily and followed Sheila into the warehouse. He was no longer the only one who wasn’t entirely what he seemed. Thunk followed, wearing the same cheshire grin that he’d worn on the way to Ralph’s basement.

The evening sunlight lit the warehouse well, if not in the glittering magic that Sheila remembered from the morning after the party. Shadows were forming and deepening in the corners and beneath the rafters. Her tears stopped as memories of the party, closed to her until now, came flooding back. She slowly walked toward the warehouse proper. For a second, she was sure that she heard Todd’s footsteps behind her, but they’d stopped almost immediately after she had registered the noise.

Something crunched under her boots as she walked. It wasn’t gravel. She looked down, feeling like she was caught in a dream, and saw millions of shattered, tiny pieces of crystal. She followed her path forward with her eyes, and noticed that they covered the floor all the way to the center of the warehouse – right where she was headed. She shook her head and banished her fear. She would not go into this like some dumb blond. Fuck her mistake; now she had a score to settle.

Thunk entered the warehouse last, after giving Todd some time to wander around and get lost. The place hadn’t changed much in a year. There were more jars in the rafters, but that was to be expected. There was broken crystal all over the floor, but it didn’t seem to come from any of the jars. He squatted, inspecting the crystal pieces more closely. The pieces were too small and too numerous to try and piece them back together. Upon a closer look, Thunk could see tracks in the crystal. One set was small, light, and recent enough to be made by Sheila’s Hot Topic boots. The other two sets were older by a few days and much larger. The similar walking patterns implied that they had been of similar weight and height. Dr. Celestine and Mr. Weaver. It had to have been.

Panic rose in Thunk’s throat. The Man was not easily killed, but those two weren’t exactly normal, run-of-the-mill thugs. Not only that, but Dr. Celestine had bore an eerie resemblance to The Man. Fatter and older, sure, but almost the same. Thunk took off into the warehouse at a jog, his panic making him forget all about Todd’s missing tracks.

Sheila came upon the machine and stopped, gaping at how complicated and clockwork the whole thing seemed. Two jars rotated on small platforms, crossing each others’ paths often. There had been a third, but the jar looked as if it had been blown apart from the inside, and the platform no longer moved. An old journal sat there, and Sheila immediately thought of Old Ralph’s writing table. Still in jars were her work ID badge, still on its lanyard, and Thunk’s grandmother’s spoon collection. The whole machine conveyed a sense of broken symmetry.

Thunk came rushing up behind her, and skidded to a halt on the crushed crystal. He saw the machine, registered it, and looked around frantically for something else. “Sheila, they came here, those two assholes from the Carnival. Dr. Celestine and Mr. Weaver!” He kept looking around, searching for something.

“So?” Sheila scowled at Thunk, not liking how familiar with this place he seemed.

“He is merely concerned for my well-being, Sheila. To say that we are not friends is understating the animosity between the Doctor and myself.” The Symmetrical Man walked out of the office and toward them. Now, his sinister intent was unquestionable. Thunk heaved a sigh of relief. “Welcome to my home.”

Eine halbe Tasse Staubzucker Ein Viertel Teeloffel Salz Eine Messerspitze turkisches Haschisch Ein halbes Pfund Butter Ein Teeloffel Vanillenzucker Ein halbes Pfund Mehl Einhundertfunfzig Gramm gemahlene Nusse Ein wenig extra Staubzucker … und keine Eier.
– Tool, “Die Eier von Satan”

[] Todd drives.

This is part 16 of Todd’s story.


Squishy transmission was caught in drive
Spider man was squinting at the sand in the sky
Spider woman in the front seat, screamin’ “Go, Go, Go,”
He’s ridin’ the accelerator down to the floor with his fuzzy little toe
The Presidents of the United States of America, “Dune Buggy”

Todd drove down the highway humming to himself and smiling. Sheila was slouched in the front passenger seat, scowl on her face and arms crossed beneath her breasts. Thunk was laid across the back seat, staring at the sky through the back window. It wasn’t that Chicago was that far away from Jackson. It wasn’t that they’d be missing school or work because of the spontaneous road trip. It was that the Carnival was in Chicago.

Sheila had been in Chicago recently. It had been a few months since the whole ordeal, and she’d tried to put it behind her. Todd and she had been fighting. They were practically broken up, then, so it’s not like she’d cheated on him. She’d used her fake ID to get into a club, where she and her cousin had run into some of her cousin’s friends. They knew about a party – the news would have probably called it a rave, they were so out of touch – that was going on at a warehouse nearby. An hour later, they were bored with the club and in line to get into the party.

She’d taken a pill, and it made her feel so good and so free. She spent most of the night alternately dancing and making out with a twenty-something martial artist. He had been so muscular and sleek, with his reddish-brown hair and Scottish jaw. There were sections of the night that she couldn’t remember, except for the feeling of his feline form and the way that he’d known just how to touch her. Then there was nothing. She woke on a mattress in an office of the warehouse. The sunlight had come in through the windows and caught beautifully in hundreds of cracked and broken glass jars that lined the rafters. She sat up and shivered when the tips of her hair brushed her shoulders.

The horror slowly dawned on her. Nearly a foot of tediously-cared-for hair had been crudely cut off. She looked down at the mattress, and next to her lay a pair of old rusty scissors. She clamped her mouth shut so that she wouldn’t scream, and frantically looked for her clothes. They were scattered all over the office, and her hips were sore enough to tell her that she’d had quite a bit of sex the night before. She cursed her stupidity as she quickly dressed and headed for the office’s door. The smell of cigarettes, sweat, beer, and sex was all over her and her clothes, and she was already fighting back tears.

Then she saw him.

He was just as beautiful as her jumbled memories had told her, but there was something sinister in his stance. He was looking at her, through her, and she might as well still have been naked. There was age in those eyes. Age, wisdom, and a fury so powerful that Sheila screamed, standing there. It echoed through the warehouse, making the jars shiver and clink against one another.

He laughed. His laugh came from deep within him, and its rebounding sound overrode her scream. Around his neck hung her Hot Topic work ID badge and lanyard. It shined and shimmered in the early-morning light as if it was glowing.

She ran then, out of the warehouse and into the city. She had thanked God that the man had left her cell phone, and that she’d been able to ride the el to get to her cousin’s place. The ID badge had been easy to replace, but the lanyard had been a gift from Todd on her first day working at Hot Topic. They’d gotten back together quickly after that, and all of her pregnancy tests had come back negative. She and Todd had been stable and happy since then, until the thing with Thunk at Ralph’s house.

She stole a glance at Todd, who was still driving along with a chipper grin on his face. She resented him for being so happy and relaxed amidst all of this weird. She resented him for being the center of it, instead of her. But most of all, she resented him for making her love him, even now. She had no idea what she’d been thinking when she let Thunk kiss her. When she’d kissed back, hard. She had never stopped loving Todd. She looked back over her shoulder as Todd swapped CD’s. Thunk seemed caught up in a daydream.

Thunk saw Sheila’s look out of the corner of his eye. He kept his gaze focused on the clouds. He had never imagined that giving up something that everyone said was so vital would give him so much power and control. She’d been so easy to push that he wondered if everyone wanted so badly to have the choice taken away. He’d given up his free will; watched it fill a mason jar like the one in Ralph’s basement, only cracked, and had been given the power to take it away. Trick was, you had to want it gone, just like he had. Sheila wanted it gone, and bad.

Thunk had never thought that it would be this much fun to do the work of The Man.

close your eyes and take me in
the way you know is soon to change
alive inside the species grows
the silent fate
will dominate
you are your own enemy
Chiasm, “Enemy”

[] Todd sketches.

This is part 15 of Todd’s story.


You think that you are complicated, deep mystery to all
Well it’s taken me a while to see, you’re not so special
All energy no meaning, with a lot of words
So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down

And I’ve seen, tonight, what I’d been warned about
I’m gonna leave, tonight, before I change my mind
Dido, “See You When You’re 40”

“TODD!” He snapped awake, sitting upright and leaving a small puddle of drool on his English Literature book. His teacher, Dr. Kopf, was staring down at him through his spectacles. The skeletal man snorted. “Seriously, Todd, the least you could do is stay awake. It’s not like we’re memorizing sonnets, here.” Dr. Kopf was a little off, according to the other English teachers at his high school.

Todd looked down at his notepad. He’d drawn a crude archway and big top in the background. In the foreground was an amazing sketch of Sheila. She was wearing her work goth outfit, with her ID badge hanging from a Hello Kitty lanyard. His parents said that he should go to art school in college, but they had snooped his notebook after a parent/teacher conference. It’s not like they understood art.

Todd looked back up at Dr. Kopf, who was talking about English literary figures breaking down conventions, only to set up new ones that would later be broken down by writers across the globe. Maybe nobody understood art. Maybe artists didn’t get it either. They just did it, because it w as coming out of them, one way or another.

Todd dropped his head into his hands, pulling his hair between his fingers. He hadn’t slept in the two nights between finding the mason jar in the basement and today. The smell of oranges still enveloped him every time he began to drift off. He couldn’t even look at an orange without getting chills. “Now, as a sidebar, many bands of actors that actually spread the fame of the playwrights would wander the countryside, doing shows wherever the audience was available. After a while, they attached themselves to wandering carnivals and freak shows, because they also traveled, and already drew an audience.”

Todd stifled the scream that tried to bubble up his throat. He wiped up the puddle of drool with a few quick swipes of his hoodie’s sleeve. He flipped to a new page in his notebook, and began to sketch viciously. Inside the Big Top, Dr. Celestine stood. He leaned on his walking stick with one hand, and held a sheaf of papers aloft with the other. Disapproval and disappointment were evident on his face as he shook the papers. Yeah, it came out of them, one way or another. He added the finishing touches to the sketch, and he suddenly felt as though the cabling that held his life in place had snapped, whipping around and destroying what was in its path.

There was a knock at the door, and an office aide handed a note to Dr. Kopf. He glanced at Todd and nodded to the aide, who left. “Todd, you’re wanted at the office.” There was a general murmur that rose as Todd packed up his things. Dr. Kopf rolled his eyes at the students and handed the pass to him. “I’ll give your homework to Sheila next hour, if I don’t see you first.” Todd nodded, and took the pass out into the hall. He had the sensation of floating down a slow river in a boat. The current would take him where he needed to go, whether or not it was where he wanted to end up. He walked into the office, and was told to sit and wait. He set his bag on the floor between his feet, and rested his head on the hard, painted cinder-block wall.

He was surrounded by warm sunlight and the smell of oranges.

A hard kick to his shin woke him up, and he looked up into Thunk’s face. “Slacker.” Todd smirked as Thunk sat down next to him. “What’re you doing here?” Todd shrugged and showed him his pass. Thunk whipped out a pass as well. “Secretary told me to sit and wait. You too?” Todd nodded. “You talk too much.” Todd smiled and laid his head back against the wall.

“We’re going to be getting out of school early, I think. They’re going to forget we’re sitting here, forget they wrote the passes, and look the other way when we go past the hall monitors and security guards.” He could almost smell the oranges.

“No way, dude. What about Sheila?” Todd smirked again as Sheila walked into the office, loudly chewing gum. “No way.”

Sheila shot them a questioning look, and they both held up their passes. She held up hers, and then sat down on Todd’s other side. “So, what’s the deal?”

Todd closed his eyes again. “We wait. But not long.” Sheila gave Thunk another one of her worried looks, but all he did was shrug. After ten minutes of pure boredom, Todd stood up and hefted his backpack. “Ready?” They both shrugged and hefted their own bags. They walked right past the normally dour hall monitors – who smiled warmly at them – and then the security guards. They strolled unaccosted to Todd’s clunker and filed in. He coaxed it to life, and drove off of school property.

All three heaved a sigh of relief. Sheila eyed Todd from the passenger seat as they made a left onto the freeway on-ramp. “Where are we going?”

Todd smiled. Sheila was taken aback; she swore that she’d never seen such an honest expression of happiness on his face before. “Chicago.”

“Why?”

“We’re going to a carnival!”

A little blind spider took the wheel
Navigatin’ grass blades completely by feel
Got a sassy chassis, sparklin in the sun
All four small bald fat tires
rockin through the sand and burnin’ up
The Presidents of the United States of America, “Dune Buggy”

[] Todd finds the storm.

This is part 14 of Todd’s story.


Cruel be the wind as it quells my words
I shout out to the rain
Incantations I’ve so hope you’ve heard
That you live again
From deep earth brings forth rebirth
Witness but I shant believe
From below a chilling glow on all
Type O Negative, “Hallow’s Eve”

Todd flicked on the basement light, his eyes as round as teacups. With Sheila and Thunk behind him, he figured that they looked like the Scooby Doo team exploring an old, haunted mansion. He snickered, and started walking down the stairs. Thunk and Sheila gave each other a worried glance, and then followed him down.

The basement was unfinished, but immaculately clean. No cobwebs, no musty smell, and no mice skittering away. There wasn’t even any dust that anyone could see. The light switch at the top of the stairs had lit overhead banks of flourescents that hung from the ceiling on small chains. They blinked to life as the three reached the basement landing.

Lining the walls were plastic garage organizers, each with about six tupperware drawers. As the three spread out in the basement, they could see that each drawer was labeled with a country and a range of dates. In the back of the basement were two doors that seemed to go to storage rooms. Sheila immediately began to open drawers while Thunk inspected the labels. Todd was drawn to the two doors. He opened the one on the left, discovering the water heater, furnace, and laundry area. He frowned and closed the door. He opened the one on the right slowly, and was bathed in a swirling light.

“Holy fucking shit, Todd! It’s money! Every single one of these drawers is full of a different kind of money!” Sheila looked up at Todd, two banded stacks of 10,000 yen bills in each hand. “Todd?” He was standing in the doorway of the room on the right, and some weird light was splaying out over him. She looked over at Thunk, who had looked up from the labels at her shout. He motioned to Todd, and she nodded.

Both rose and went to Todd, peeking over and around him to see what had enraptured him. There was one rickety card table in the center of the room. On it stood an old masonic jar, filled with a hurricane. The light pulsed and swirled out of the jar as the storm roiled inside it. “Hey, Todd.” Thunk pushed Todd, sending him tumbling into the room. He caught himself before he fell, but had to shake his head to clear it. “You all right, man?”

“Yeah.” Todd’s gaze drifted back to the impossible jar. “This is what those two have been looking for. IT’s why they came today. They want it back.” Todd slowly approached the card table, and the house’s support beams creaked. Todd froze in his tracks, Sheila backed out of the room, and Thunk flinched. Todd backed away from the card table and brought Thunk out of the room with him. He shut the door and heard a whispered sigh. “Not yet. We don’t take it yet.”

Thunk nodded, and then Sheila grabbed Todd’s arm. They both jumped. “Cash money, Todd. Every drawer. This basement has millions of fucking dollars just sitting here, Todd. Millions. Of. Dollars. TODD!” He looked down at her, not really recognizing her. He looked at his left hand, which still had the box containing the golden ticket.

“It’s like a movie, Sheila. One of those ones with a plot so big that money is small. Unimportant.” He played with the hinge, and finally opened it, succumbing to temptation. He pulled the ticket out and held it up to show them. Something boiled across the surface of the ticket, changing it. The gold bubbled away, leaving a glossy black. The black letters boiled to gold foil. Todd flipped the inverted ticket over to inspect the list of visited attractions. Only one was marked off: Bloody Mary Black’s Freak Show. “Compared to this, money is nothing.”

Mr. Weaver walked forward slowly, making sure that each step was firm and solid. It would not do to lose footing now. The path before him was laid with strands of red hair, as though some twisted flower girl had come here days ago. There was power in the path of hair. It was dangerous to them because it was like them. Every strand that touched his boot crystallized, becoming harmless, and shattered. Every strand that touched that one would do the same, until the power of his step was used. Every strand needed to be destroyed in this manner. Otherwise, something bad would happen. Crossing the streams bad.

Dr. Celestine walked somewhat impatiently behind him, grumbling about his lack of flair. Eventually, they came to the center of the warehouse proper. The dust and dirt on the floor to the left seemed marred by shuffled footsteps. There was also a full-length mirror stood up against a support beam. To their right was an incredibly complex clockwork machine that reminded Mr. Weaver of the hag’s celestial model from Dark Crystal. Three objects rested inside of cracked jars that rotated and circled in erratic orbits on the machine. Despite this, the machine conveyed a sense of balance and symmetry.

Each object crossed another’s path at several points. The innermost was an old journal. The second was a Hot Topic employee ID card on a lanyard. The outermost object was a display box filled with collectible spoons. “He’s manipulating their wills.”

Dr. Celestine tapped an arm of the machine with his walking stick as it went past. Angry sparks sprayed to the ground. “Of course he is.” He moved to the mirror and inspected his clothes. He then gestured to the rafters, which were lined with broken and shattered jars. “Follow me.” They both walked about fifty yards bast the mirror, and turned left around a stack of boxes. There, setting atop a four-foot tall mound of broken shards of glass, sat a photo of Todd as a child, sitting next to Ralph at his calliope. “I will end you, or I won’t. Do not mistake me for one who wants to take your place.”

“What?” Mr. Weaver couldn’t take his eyes off of all the broken glass.

“We have a Carnival to set up. Let’s stop wasting time here; we have a job to do.” Celestine kicked at a jar lid and headed toward the exit. Mr. Weaver heaved a sigh and followed.

And if you find one day, find some freedom and relief
With this freedom maybe, maybe you will find some peace
With this peace baby, I hope it brings you back to me
Bring you home, take me home
Dido, “Stoned”

[] Todd explains.

This is part 13 of Todd’s story.



Your lives are open wide,
The V-chip gives them sight,
All the life running through her hair,

The spiders all in tune,
The evening of the moon,
Dreams are made winding through my head,

Through my head,
Before you know, Awake
– System of a Down, “Spiders”

Todd snapped the box shut, and both Thunk and Sheila sat bolt upright. The walls whispered of forgetfulness, and Todd stood up. “We need to explore the basement.”

Sheila, who was now fully clothed, took a deep breath. “Todd, are you sure? I mean, maybe we should go…” Todd made a cutting motion with his hand and shook his head.

“Not yet. Look, as soon as I saw those guys, I remembered the nightmare that kept me up all night. The one with the hat, Dr. Celestine, he was in it.”

“Todd, both of those guys were in the pictures upstairs. That’s not possible.” Thunk slowly stood up.

“Not only there, but I’m betting that they’re in photos all over the house. I saw them across the street yesterday, before I headed out to the mall. They were staking the house out, probably for today’s little visit. The one with the hat, he runs that ‘mysterious carnival’ with all the ads and newspaper articles. The other one, he’s a carnie, like all the others in the pictures.” Todd was gesturing wildly with the box.

“Okay, so that explains why you freaked and ran into the bathroom, but why did they come here? Are they the ones that took the journal?” The house creaked, settling. Thunk flinched.

Todd turned the box toward them, and opened it. Sheila gasped and stood up, almost lunging at it. He snapped it shut again, and she stopped, seeming to sag. “It’s so pretty. What is it, Todd?”

Todd frowned, and shared a glance with Thunk. “It’s old Ralph’s ticket to that guy’s carnival, Sheila. It’s probably what started all of this bullshit. Pretty?” Sheila blinked and took a couple of steps back. She frowned and shook her head, trying to clear it. Her shoulder-length red hair splayed out, then dropped back into near-perfection. She sat on the arm of one of the guest chairs and sighed. “Todd, what did that ticket do to Ralph? What did that carnival and those people do to him? What are they doing to you? To us?” She looked on the verge of tears again, and Todd couldn’t stop himself from hugging her to bring some kind of comfort. She immediately melted into his arms.

After a few moments, Thunk coughed into his hand. Todd and Sheila unwrapped themselves from each other. “So you think that something as weird as all of this went down with Ralph when he went to that dude’s carnival-”

“Weirder.”

“-and that there’s more here to help us figure out what the hell that was. Why, Watson? You think that will clue us in on why he tracked them, why they tracked you, and why you can close doors without touching them?” Thunk re-lit his cigar and took a couple of Holmes puffs.

“Yeah.” Todd shoved his fists into his hoodie’s pocket. “So?”

Thunk grinned widely around the cigar, and Todd was reminded of the wolf-like woman in the photograph upstairs. “You are one optimistic motherfucker.”

Sheila rolled her eyes. “Shut up, Thunk.” They headed for the basement stairs, Thunk grinning like the cheshire cat.

Mr. Weaver brought the Olds to a stop on the gravel and crumbling concrete driveway in front of the loading dock. Dr. Celestine immediately threw open the passenger door and hopped out. He strode up to the trailer docs and stood there, nose to the wind, trying to sniff out his prey. Mr. Weaver sighed as he put the car in park and turned off the engine. The collar of his trench was lined with pins in the shape of spiders.

The stone crunched under his boots as he approached the Doctor. When he stopped, Celestine said, “He’s left this place, but he hasn’t taken anything with him. Go and call your brother.”

Mr. Weaver scowled. “He’s busy. He won’t even be at the rides until opening night tomorrow.” Celestine sighed. “I’m not entirely useless, you know.”

“Yes, but your brother is quite a bit more intimidating. Very well. You get to go first. Clear the way, so to speak.” He tapped Mr. Weaver on the shoulder with his silver dragon-tipped walking stick. Mr. Weaver nodded, and led the way into the dilapidated warehouse.

Autumn in her flaming dress
Of orange, brown, gold fallen leaves
My mistress of the frigid night
I worship pray to on my knees
– Type O Negative, “Green Man”

[] Todd puts it together.

This is part 12 of Todd’s story.


Giving in to what has got me
Feeling claustrophobic, scarred
Severed me from all emotion
Life is just too fucking hard
SNAP! Your face was all it took
Cuz this need ain’t doin’ me no good
Fall on my face, but can’t you see?
This fucking life is KILLING ME!
– Slipknot, “Me Inside”

The front door to Old Ralph’s house swung shut slowly, creaking. It latched shut, and the only noises were Thunk’s rasping breath and Sheila’s strangled sobs. Todd didn’t acknowledge, or really seem to register, that he hadn’t touched the door. He walked into the library, sat in the overstuffed chair, and put his cigar out in the ash tray. He slowly let his head sink into his hands, and he desperately tried to forget everything that had happened in the past few days.

Eventually, Thunk and Sheila sat down in the two chairs that faced Todd. He hadn’t moved much, but the tips of his fingers were white from the pressure of pressing against his skull. “My best friend and my girlfriend, making out, while two guys from crazy-town talk to me down here. What. The. Shit.” Todd could hear Sheila crying again. He could hear Thunk’s regular breathing. He could hear the house creaking. He could hear whispering in the walls. He could hear apprehension whispering to him from the creak and settle of the house.

“Todd, man.” He slowly looked up at Thunk, whose eyes refused to meet his. “This… this was on the seat before I sat down.” Thunk’s shaking hand held a carved wooden box with a brass plate on the top. Todd took the box, and ran his thumb over the plate. It was heavily tarnished with age, but the engraving was still legible.

“Old Ralph.” It came out as a choked whisper, and Todd could see Thunk flinch as if hit. Todd open the box slowly, relishing the feel of the wood and the creak of the hinge. Inside this box was anesthetic for his pain, straight from the mud of Dr. Celestine’s Carnival of Souls. Inside this box, lying peacefully on blue velvet, printed on foil paper, was a golden ticket. Its stub was already torn. “Uncle Ralph went to the Carnival. He’s been tracking it ever since.” Todd looked up at his friends, temporarily forgetting their transgression. They were afraid of him, and maybe even for him. “I have a lot to tell you, but you have to stay to explore the rest of the house. Okay?” They both nodded, as if stuck in a dream.

Mr. Weaver slammed the door of the Olds shut and gunned the old engine to life. The Doctor sat next to him heavily, wheezing a bit with each breath. Mr. Weaver buckled his own seat belt and glared at the Doctor. “What did you do to those kids upstairs?”

Dr. Celestine put on a shocked and wounded look, immediately followed by one that was sly and calculating. “I had sincerely thought that you were past that sort of question. It’s true that I might resort to something like that in more playful circumstances, but I assure you that I had no hand in it.” The doctor gripped the handle of his door with white knuckles.

Mr. Weaver put the car into drive, and pulled out into the residential street. “You know how hard it was to perform those parlor tricks in there, don’t you? I nearly fell to pieces. Those two kids, they gave me the creeps. Felt like I had two little clowns by the neck. They aren’t yours, are they?” Mr. Weaver sailed the boat around a semi as he entered the highway. The enormous engine roared a challenge to other cars on the road, but they knew their stations and stayed put. Mr. Weaver came to the end of his patience as the speedometer buried its needle, and spat out, “Well?”

The Doctor had closed his eyes. “You have been taking anger management classes from your brother again, haven’t you?” Mr. Weaver took a deep breath and let it out. His spider pins skittered off of his coat, and began to affix themselves to parts of the Olds.

“Where to, Doctor?”

“Chicago.”

“The new site?”

“By way of a certain warehouse.”

I don’t think you trust,
In… my… self righteous suicide,
I… cry… when angels deserve to die
– System of a Down, “Chop Suey”

[] Todd is overwhelmed.

This is part 11 of Todd’s story.



Cast the calming apple
Up and over satellites
To draw out the timid wild one
To convince you it’s alright
And I listen for the whisper
Of your sweet insanity while I formulate
Denials of your affect on me
– A Perfect Circle, “A Stranger”

Todd, against every instinct in his being, opened the front door. Behind Dr. Celestine stood his armor-plated brother. “Good morning, Todd. How good to finally meet you in the flesh, so to speak.” The doctor smiled broadly, and swept a bow. This was nearly too surreal to handle. “May we come in?”

Something clicked inside of Todd, and he realized that this was his home, and he was still in control here. “Of course. It’s a mess, but I doubt you’ll mind.” Todd mentioned them to the library. The one with the armor half-nodded, half-bowed as he entered the building.

Todd walked with them to the library, which now housed three chairs. Todd sat in the overstuffed one, and the other two took the guest chairs. An odd sense of calm had settled over him. He felt much older than either the hat or the cigar had made him feel. He offered a Nat Sherman to Dr. Celestine, and a Helix cigar to his brother, completely operating on instinct. Both accepted. He lit both of them, then leaned back in the overstuffed chair. He puffed on his own cigar, then asked, “So, now what?”

Dr. Celestine exploded into laughter. It seemed to shake its way out of him. When it finally passed, he wiped a tear from his eye. “Let us begin with introductions. My name is Celestine, and I am the proprietor – and owner – of a carnival. But I suspect you already knew that. This man is Mr. Weaver; he runs the rides at my carnival.” The armored man nodded.

“Dr. Celestine’s Carnival of Souls,” Todd whispered.

“Ah, yes, so you’ve heard of us. Well, you would have, if you are now in possession of Ralph’s house.” The ceiling made a thunk noise, as if something heavy had impacted it. They all looked up for a moment, and then back at each other. “How exactly did that happen, if you don’t mind me asking?”

Todd took his cigar out of his mouth and stared at it. “He left all of it to me, in his will. I hate that it makes me a vulture, and I hate that I suddenly have no idea who Ralph really was. All of this is way more than someone like me should have to deal with, right? It’s just all so overwhelming.”

Dr. Celestine nodded. “Just so.” Another noise from upstairs raised their eyes. Just what were Sheila and Thunk doing up there? Directly above them was the guest room.

Mr. Weaver stood up. “If you two don’t mind, I’m going to check that out.” Both Todd and Dr. Celestine nodded, despite Todd’s irrational concern for their lives. He did a double-take at Mr. Weaver as he left. It looked like he had tons of tiny metal spiders pinned to the hem of his coat. They nearly scraped the hardwood floors. Mr. Weaver calmly ascended the staircase, as if none of this was out of the ordinary.

Dr. Celestine finished his cigarette, and put it out in the ash tray. “I’m not here to hurt you, Todd, at least not directly. I am here because I intend on continuing to exist, in this form, or one very close to it. I like to size up my competition.”

Todd nodded, as if he understood, which he sure as shit did not. There was a whispering near his hear, and Todd whipped around in his chair, and then back to Dr. Celestine. “Problem?” Todd found himself nodding. He was suddenly very sure that he did not want Mr. Weaver to return down the stairs. He was definitely sure that he didn’t want to know what Sheila and Thunk had been doing. Despite his most pleading hopes, the stairs began to creak with enormous weight. Mr. Weaver’s boots. The hem of Mr. Weaver’s coat, now missing the spider pins. The dangling, struggling feet of Thunk, and then of Sheila.

Mr. Weaver brought them downstairs. HE was holding each by their neck, and they were struggling uselessly. Earlier, normal, flesh-colored hands had just poked out of the cuffs of his coat. Now, giant metal girder constructs vaguely shaped like hands thrust out and held his friends high. His friends, who in their struggling, admitted their betrayal. Sheila’s hands were wrapped around Mr. Weaver’s, trying to pry them free. She hadn’t bothered to try and hide that she was completely topless.

The anger, hurt, odd arousal, and strangeness overwhelmed Todd. His face drained completely of color. Dr. Celestine sat watching him. Sizing up his competition. “Mr. Weaver, please let go of my friends.” He did, and they dropped to the floor, gasping. Sheila covered her breasts with her arms, and began to sob. Todd looked back to Mr. Weaver, whose hands were normal, and whose coat had spider pins lining the sleeves. “Thank you.”

Todd turned to Dr. Celestine and offered him another Nat Sherman. He accepted, and began to pat himself down for a light. “Now get out.” Todd pointed at the door, and it swung open.

Dr. Celestine swept a fancy bow, then took his leave. Mr. Weaver followed without a word. Outside on the porch, Celestine remarked to Weaver, “And this is why I keep telling you that friends are over-rated. If not for friends, I would know where Molly was, and we’d have proper transportation.”

I’ve felt the hate rise up in me…
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves…
I wander out where you can’t see…
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed…
– Slipknot, “Wait and Bleed”