I have the desire to bathe in all that would
Affront you
Insult you
Disgust you
Drive you away
Question all the good things you’ve said about me.

I have the desire to destroy something beautiful
Tear it apart
Rend it limb from limb
Shatter it
Crush it
Bend it
Fuck it up beyond all comprehensible recognition.

I have the desire to intentionally hurt someone’s feelings
Humiliate
Depreciate
Belittle
Embarrass
Destroy their reputation to those that mean the most.

I will never act on these desires.
I will voice them, and attempt to heal my wounds.
I will bow my head, for I have tied my own hands behind my back.