Serious

I worry about my random attention to detail when it approaches the extreme. I can’t help but worry that it’s linked somehow to the spirituality that I fear is just mild schitzophranea. My window has been replaced, and it’s muted the sounds outside the car and magnified the sounds in the car to such a way that driving without a stereo is going to drive me mad.

One down, I tell my car, and only three to go. I’ll take care of you.

The only woman I’ve ever been in love with and am still friends with is frustrated and torn with helplessness. And I can’t really do anything to help. I’m not involved, but I swear to Draconis that her pain is tangible.

I can only say thank you for making my backyard infinitely bigger.

They tell us we’re the best. Nobody hits and surpasses expectations like we do. We continually push ourselves and can only be driven from the inside, as any compensation from the outside is horrendously insignificant. A good friend and someone whom I respect spiritually told me yesterday that I shouldn’t accept the dirt that I’m being handed.

My birthday party may get us evicted from the overwhelming response I’ve gotten. Dig it. The Dave/Schwa/Skippy is mighty. Hee hee.

Random Thoughts

I wrote three poems last night.
Experienced a bit of social discomfort.
Maybe I should ask Syn/Ack or Deatheater to teach me how to DJ.
Maybe I should stick to the projects I have at hand.
Dew tastes good in the morning.
Got my grocery shopping done yesterday, as planned.
I will hafta pick up something for the GS potluck today. Maybe some hookers.

Cheerios 0wnz j00

I did laundry last night, and it ended up going pretty late. Then Scott made margarita mix as I was yelling out of my room about self-destructive behavior. So we indulged. They were tasty. And we talked. And I slept far too little last night and got into work an hour and a half late. So I’ll stay an hour and a half after shift.

I’m going to Spiral tonight. I think I’ll post on the Lansing communities about it.

Coherent thought will eventually catch up to me. I hope. Heheheh…

[Poem] Sweeping

They’ve just lit the incense
It’ll be at it’s strongest in about three minutes
Dig that scent

God song, bad song, good song

Entrancing strangeness of videos
Feeling, writhing, writing, thin as lies

A businessman is sorting the ashes
as if the butt was a broom
and has already devised a
marketing scheme

Is advertising
normalizing
an attempt to steal it away
into the ranks of the
sold-out?

Isn’t that what we all want?

[Poem] Faking it.

The elvish features always
snag my eyes
the real ones
you can just tell.

Eventually, image reflects the within
whether we want it to or not
you can just tell.

He’s no businessman.
I remember now.
He’s a lawyer.
A dirty one.

The image reflects the within.
Sounds like a theory that
As time approaches infinity,
the difference between faked and real
approaches zero.
Inverse relationship.

Eventually, everyone will know
It will be common knowledge
worse yet
It will be old news

That you’re faking it.