Fitful sleep brings waking dreams.
Dreams of what I think I want.
Love for all of life.
Intimacy unbound.

An actress I know, and wish to know.
A role I need filled in my movie.
Who am I to cast?
Who am I to direct?

My mind hurts from predicting scenes.
My jaw hurts from clenching teeth.
I want the role filled.
I need a companion.

But I must wait. Go with the flow.
Don’t push too hard. But don’t wait too long.
I must have balance.
I must have calm.