Serious

I worry about my random attention to detail when it approaches the extreme. I can’t help but worry that it’s linked somehow to the spirituality that I fear is just mild schitzophranea. My window has been replaced, and it’s muted the sounds outside the car and magnified the sounds in the car to such a way that driving without a stereo is going to drive me mad.

One down, I tell my car, and only three to go. I’ll take care of you.

The only woman I’ve ever been in love with and am still friends with is frustrated and torn with helplessness. And I can’t really do anything to help. I’m not involved, but I swear to Draconis that her pain is tangible.

I can only say thank you for making my backyard infinitely bigger.

They tell us we’re the best. Nobody hits and surpasses expectations like we do. We continually push ourselves and can only be driven from the inside, as any compensation from the outside is horrendously insignificant. A good friend and someone whom I respect spiritually told me yesterday that I shouldn’t accept the dirt that I’m being handed.

My birthday party may get us evicted from the overwhelming response I’ve gotten. Dig it. The Dave/Schwa/Skippy is mighty. Hee hee.

Random Thoughts

I wrote three poems last night.
Experienced a bit of social discomfort.
Maybe I should ask Syn/Ack or Deatheater to teach me how to DJ.
Maybe I should stick to the projects I have at hand.
Dew tastes good in the morning.
Got my grocery shopping done yesterday, as planned.
I will hafta pick up something for the GS potluck today. Maybe some hookers.

Cheerios 0wnz j00

I did laundry last night, and it ended up going pretty late. Then Scott made margarita mix as I was yelling out of my room about self-destructive behavior. So we indulged. They were tasty. And we talked. And I slept far too little last night and got into work an hour and a half late. So I’ll stay an hour and a half after shift.

I’m going to Spiral tonight. I think I’ll post on the Lansing communities about it.

Coherent thought will eventually catch up to me. I hope. Heheheh…

[Poem] Buried Treasure

I have been entirely entranced
enraptured
taken in
romanced
inspired, even.

The discarded heart of an actual city
lies in the middle of the mitten.
It’s still beating
can you beleive it?!
Grand discovery is mine

What I was running for
what I was seeking out
I already knew it
…but isn’t it always that way…

Spun into the web of home
with a price tag I can’t afford
It must be mine.
I must re-awaken and call
all the strands of chance
my good friends.

No longer an armchair human
I must get up and take
control.

[Poem] Dragon City

The music has survived the apocalypse
For this, we rejoice
In all the ways we know how.

The beat lives on, an
affirmation of our survival
and a praise to humanity.

The voice shatters silence with a perfect tone
survivors claw themselves out
from under rubble.

All stops, silence reigns, under a moving shadow
A roar like trumpeting thunder
Sends them scurrying.

It lands with the crunching
of pavement
and spreads scaled wings.

When they finally dare to look:
A harmless man in black clothes
Leather trench flapping in the wind.

He asks them to sing
Pleads
And they see he’s crying.