When walking (hiking) through San Francisco (omg steep) in search of coffee, food, post office box, whatever…
Lighten the load of your backpack.
When walking (hiking) through San Francisco (omg steep) in search of coffee, food, post office box, whatever…
Lighten the load of your backpack.
The second leg of the flight was quite bumpy, but I definitely dig Frontier Airlines. Their seats are comfortable and spacious compared to United’s. Well, if they weren’t, they gave the illusion of being so. I’m awake, and my cell phone says it’s 8:30 AM. My laptop doesn’t yet know that it’s across the country, and reads the (proper) time of 11:30 AM. Still, I didn’t get to sleep until 1 AM or later local time, so I should be more zonked than I am.
I am not very zonked.
It got cold enough here in
The shuttle from SFO went all over the city last night, as I was the last passenger to be dropped off. I saw Fisherman’s Wharf, and a boarded up maritime museum. I saw hilly and mountainous geography mapped out in what seemed like millions of lights, and it seemed to stretch forever, despite those giant pointy outcroppings of ground at the horizon. I saw skyscrapers piled together almost casually, as if just hanging out, as we came around a mountain (hill?). I saw what appeared to be swank hotels right next to pawn shops and check cashing stores, and then a gourmet tie-and-jacket restaurant across the street that was right next to a pizza joint.
I look at my phone’s clock and feel productive. I look at my laptop clock and feel like a slacker. This is approaching hilarious.
It felt alien, last night. It felt foreign, and it felt crazy that I was here. It felt crazy that the cute, athletic girl (she’s over 21, should I be calling her a girl or a woman?) chatted me up on the plane for the entire trip from Detroit to Denver. It felt crazy that I could associate flying with getting uncomfortable gas, as if I were someone that flew regularly. It felt insane that Mom was able to keep it together until I was at the security checkpoint, and maybe beyond. I was so far away from everything that I knew when I fell asleep.
Now, the sun is pushing its way through the blinds, lighting up this way-too-yellow room. I’m in California, and I got chilled last night. There are a ton of wireless connections within my laptop’s reach, and all but one are secured. I don’t trust the unsecured one much, because it seems more likely that someone much like Ben Holcomb might be out here, redirecting my packets down the wrong tubes (-very- wrong), or just deciding to sit back and watch my traffic. How much more careful do I have to be, now that I’m in a big city that’s just north of Silicon Valley? I feel challenged, instead of alone. I feel possibilities, instead of frightening incongruities.
That’s another thing. Apparently, I’ve been misled on the definition of “city”. Wow. At street level, this place looks and operates like it might be a vital Detroit. When seen from afar, mid western cities seem less vibrant. Maybe I was just overwhelmed at the newness of it all last night. If not, I’m going to have to learn what let San Francisco be San Francisco, and help Detroit find that again. Maybe even Lansing. When I come back, of course. ;)
I’ll post this as soon as I find a network connection.
The car is in her name. Our phone plans are separated. Over half of my stuff is packed and ready to be put into storage.
She has flaked out on taking my stuff to California behind me, so I have found a cheaper and more reliable way. She wanted me to either pay for her return ticket (on a trip not only meant to bring out my stuff, but to visit with the friend that she is in love with… the love that started all of this) or to give her a definite “deadline” on when I would have an apartment. From my point of view these requests were entirely unreasonable, especially so late. So, like I said, I found a better way. Rely on the professionals, right?
Now, she’s started to make noises about the dog, and so I’ve been looking more seriously at finding him a permanent home. I’m still divided on the matter, at least while sober. For now, Lauren has agreed to take care of him, and find him a place if/when she (the soon-to-be-ex) moves out of the house before I find an apartment. Today, she did what I feel was a 180, and claimed that he was her dog, too. She said that she would take care of him as long as she was still living at the house. The lifestyle she’s chosen is purposefully irresponsible. How can I trust her to take care of the dog?
At the same time, I feel selfish for not knowing if I want the dog with me in California. Yeah, where I’m going is very dog friendly, but it would be nice not to be breathing dog hair. It would be nice not to have to worry about feeding him, getting him his shots, worrying about having to be home. This is my selfish side coming out, combined with a bit of bitterness – the idea of getting a pet was entirely hers. Then again, so was buying the house.
I’m amazing myself at the amount of baggage I’ve got to take with me. But I’m trying to sever it. I’m trying to leave it behind and look forward to all of the awesomeness that awaits me on the west coast.
Five out of seven knots on my side are untied. Apparently, two on her side are waiting for me, and then she’s got one left.
I’m trying.
Packing is going, and going, and going. :) I think it just seems that way because that’s all I’ve been thinking about for the last few days. Right now, I’m doing dishes and cooking some cheesy potato goodness. Frozen southwestern potatoes, spices, and Meijer shredded provolone cheese. Hey, you deal with what you’ve got, right? I may get really crazy and make some broccoli later. But that’ll have to be some sort of reward for packing up all of my electronics, cables, cords, adapters, and such.
Maybe it’ll motivate me more if it’s cheesy broccoli.
Why don’t email applications cache IMAP email messages locally? I mean, requiring an internet connection for IMAP message viewing constrains it to the level of webmail. Wouldn’t it make more sense to cache all previously-viewed messages locally, so that they can be perused at the user’s pleasure, weather or not they are connected to the tubes?
TAURUS (April 20-May 20): Here’s the problem as I see it: You’re not feeling sufficiently confident to trust your unique insights, and so you haven’t dared to communicate them. But it’s crucial that you do speak up. Even though you may not be as knowledgeable about the big picture as other people are, you possess a missing piece of the puzzle that they’ve got to have. You may even be an outsider or a latecomer with relatively little credibility in the eyes of those in the inner circle, but still: You know something they don’t know and need to know.
Martinis with Midori are clearly delicious. I am at work, and therefore not drinking them. This is sad.
That is all.
Saturday’s going-away party was a blast, and here’s the photographic evidence. :)