Weekly Word Count – back from the dead!

This small part of Adam’s name is taking me forever to edit. I’m adding a few pages to it, just about doubling its length, because it needs more. ( Thanks ) I’ve got a decent start on it, but I feel stuck. Should I bring the girl in early, or should they run into each other on the dance floor? Should there be more foreshadowing about the story that Adam is getting involved in? Or should there just be more about how he feels apart from everything?

This is the first encounter that has Adam really and truly just observing someone else’s story. He’s slipped into another fictional world, one in which a girl gets initiated into a sisterhood of witches. Adam will only witness a very small slice of the story, but it will be enough to send him on his way. Since Adam’s telling the story, putting more emphasis on his separation from the world around him makes the story uninteresting… why should the reader care? And Adam certainly loses himself in this girl as he tries to escape into the drunk game again… maybe he shouldn’t be so okay with leaving at the end.

I might just need to fill the space with words and see what comes out. :)

Horoscope

TAURUS (April 20-May 20): Speaking on the authority of the expansive planet Jupiter, I hereby free you from all inferior temptations. In the coming weeks, you will, by cosmic decree, be enticed by only the finest, most uplifting temptations. That doesn’t mean you should automatically succumb to the charms of those temptations. The more important point is that you should allow them to influence you — to change you around every which way. Trust that the impact they have on you, as they invite you to follow them, will inspire you to express yourself more beautifully and upgrade your relationship with yourself.

Getting closer.

I want to pay back the debts I owe.
I want to live simply and cheaply so that I can do this, and yet I want to be able to enjoy the things that I enjoy doing.

I’m going to take ‘s advice and get Quicken. They have a version for small business that will allow me to manage my normal funds as well as the book funds, both out of my personal accounts.

I have a line on a car. Let’s hope it’s not too good to be true.

I’m getting close, now, to deciding.

What do I want?

I want my own place.
I want to hang out with my dog.
I want to write.
I want to set up my SETI Retirement Home.
I want to be comfortable enough in my place, my home, to be able to write.

I want a job that I can leave at work when I go home.
I want a job that will pay the bills.
I want a job that will give me enough free time to write and publicize my writing.

I want to finish what I started – namely, school.
I want to put down roots.
I want to participate in local government; I want to be an active citizen.
I want to -be- somewhere.

I want an apartment; I don’t want the extra part-time job (full?) that comes with home ownership.
I want to live on or near a bus line, but I also want a small, fuel-efficient car so that I can visit family and friends.
I want to feel at home.
I want to relax, I want to unwind, and I want to feel part of the place in which I live.

None of these things are location-dependent. All of these things that I know that I want can be done anywhere. And yet I left California because I knew that it was not where I wanted to be. I wanted to be in Michigan. Am I blocking myself again, like I did with the question “What do I want?” when I was out there? Is there another layer of self-programming to strip away? Am I stalling, to stay in a place that is totally safe?

*sigh*

If I go back to Lansing, will I be able to stay out of drama enough to heal? Is my will strong enough? Will my actions follow my ideals?