First Payday

Today is the first payday at my new job. For some reason, the first payday tends to cement things for me, with a job. I’m receiving money for my services rendered. I’m part of the company. I’m an employee.

Of course, with this job, I had insurance right away, and that kicked things into gear a little early. I still feel kind of bad for having to take days off in my second week of work. C’mon, work ethic trumps bronchitis right? Guess not. Heh.

I started playing with numbers in my head, and I started to panic a little. Compared the projected outgoing money with the projected income, and had some scary results. Then I found my mistake. This two-week paycheck is only for one week’s worth of work. Crisis averted. Next paycheck (and subsequent ones) will be double the amount. Funds will still be very tight for the next two weeks, but relief is just over the horizon.

didn’t like me talking about our money. But money has always been a big trip-up for me, as far as spending it unwisely, or forgetting bills, or whatever. It’s also been one of the biggest stress triggers in my life. I’m sure that it’s that way for everyone. This is why paying back what I owe is so important to me. Reaching zero debt is an extremely important goal for me, and one that I intend to reach. I can do this, if I focus, and if my actions follow my intents. I can lessen the impact this stress has on my life by writing about it, and by fixing it.

Some of the clarity that I’ve asked for is coming. I can only guess that the rest is on its way.

Venture Bros., Season 1

This review should be taken in the context of a haze of severe bronchitis, steroid-based inhalers (which tend to mess with my brainmeats a little), and light-headedness due to coughing fits.

All in all, the perfect mindset for the Venture Bros. :) I’d loved this show when it was on Adult Swim, so I couldn’t resist adding it when I signed up. The first disc was only episodes I’d seen enough times that they’d lost a bit of their shiny humor, but the second disc made me laugh out loud repeatedly. Just enough of the “wait, WHAT just happened?” mixed with the ridiculous thrown in with the homages to old-school science fiction. I rated it 5/5 stars.

Tonight, tonight

So, I have two options for tonight:

a – Hang out with and for some SNES and TV watchin’.

b – Hit a second meeting of the reincarnated Green Spiral.

I think I’m going to go with option c:

Go home, have dinner, watch DVD, sleep. I need to be getting more sleep on a nightly basis, and with being at work at 8:30 am, either of the above options will not afford me the sleep I need to recover properly.

Stargate: Atlantis, Season 2

I have to admit, I’d already seen this season via download, before it was available on DVD. I wanted to know if I’d missed something, so I put this near the top of my queue. I hadn’t missed anything, but 2/3 of the episodes were totally worth watching again. I’ve staggered my TV series, so I don’t get burned out on one or the other, so it’ll be a bit before the third season comes around again. I definitely give this season a thumbs-up, for the rogue Ford and for the space cowboy Ronon.

Horoscope

TAURUS (April 20-May 20): Explore the off-limits area of your imagination, Taurus. I’m talking about that barely conscious part of your psyche where taboo fantasies and unruly notions have been steadily growing in the dark, accumulating the dark luminosity that all secret things do. If you consort with them now, you’ll be just in time to prevent them from becoming monstrous and reeling out of control. Even better, you’ll have a good chance of shaping them into resources that will serve you well.

Weekly Word Count

Next little installment of Adam’s name is up! It’s here!

Word count graphics are fixed! They’re here!

In the middle of my pseudo-quarantine due to excessive coughing and throat that’s hanging in ribbons, I bring you the Weekly Word Count! I’m continuing to make little tweaks to the web site as I update and add bits that I’ve written.

Any comments and constructive criticism are always welcome. :) Also, I’m thinking of re-writing the first five or so chapters of The Remembrance, to make it a bit more palatable to potential agents and publishers. I worry, though, about losing the freedom that I have publishing through Lulu. I feel like I’m riding the front wave of a change in how information is purchased and disseminated. I have control, and I own the rights. And yet, if you want to buy my book from Borders, you’re going to run into problems, because my distribution house is owned by Barnes & Noble.

So, I dunno. Again, any input is appreciated.

Adam’s Name

[Carnival] Pressure Cooker

The carnie had Thunk sit down on a well-worn workshop stool. He rummaged through one of many drawers in an enormous wooden dresser. It had six columns of drawers, filled the shed from floor do ceiling, and shined with polish. “Got to make sure you’re actually alive, otherwise this won’t work.” He came back to Thunk brandishing a magnifying glass. “Let me see that shoulder.”

Thunk spun on the stool so that his left side faced the carnie. Now that he was distracted from carrying out Todd’s orders, he noticed that the man seemed familiar. He wore a black cotton hoodie sweatshirt with faded patches sewn on in random locations. His hair was brown, and just wavy enough to almost be curly. On the back of his left hand was a tattoo of eight arrows radiating from a single point. On his right was one of a gear. “Have we met before?”

The carnie squinted at Thunk’s shoulder meat through the magnifying glass. As he looked, a faint buzzing sound filled the shed. “Plenty of cellular activity. No healing or white cell freak-out. As if the arm was still attached. Which is clearly not the case.” The man blinked a few times and looked up at Thunk. “Did you say something?”

Thunk shook his head. “Never mind.”

The man went back to the monstrous wooden dresser and replaced the magnifying glass He closed the drawer and started digging in a pile of wooden boxes underneath a workbench. “Time is funny, Thunk. I mean, you should know that, of all people.” He pulled a long box out from the pile and blew off a layer of dust. The top of the box was ornately burned with a very simple label: Arm, Left. “It’s all stretchy.”

“How do you know my name?” The buzzing in the shed was getting louder, and Thunk really wanted to be outside, looking for Sheila.

“Fame’s funny, too.” The carnie opened the box, and Thunk heard something whispering against the red felt lining. “Two people, like us, we’ve probably run into each other dozens of times, and didn’t even know it.” He hefted the metal contraption in the box, and brought it over to Thunk.

He looked from the mess of gears and pistons and dials to the carnie and to the shed’s door. “I really should be out there, looking for Shei-”

The carnie pushed one end up against Thunk’s shoulder meat, and twisted. Thunk’s body spasmed and his eyes rolled back into his head. The gears started to turn and the pistons began to pump. “Oh, yeah. I should tell you: this is gonna feel pretty strange.”

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Thunk opened his eyes onto a frozen wasteland. Dunes of snow gave way to cracked ice and gray skies. The wind blew, and he could feel it lash at his exposed skin. He looked down at himself, only mildly shocked that he was nude. His left arm was still missing. His right wrist, both ankles, and neck were locked in steel shackles that had no chains. Thunk looked around, seriously doubting that he’d find Sheila here. He tried to step forward, only to find the ankle shackle holding him in place. He was trapped.

The ice under him began to rumble and shake. Thunk knelt on the ice, shielding his face with his arm. The cold below him shot into his knees, making him shiver and convulse immediately. In front of him, chunks of ice exploded into the air amidst billowing clouds of steam. Fear crept into the edges of Thunk’s mind, something that should not have been possible. Steam rolled over him, driving away the cold and encasing him in a layer of warm wetness. He stood again, the pale echo of fear turning into a pale echo of curiosity. He squinted into the steam ahead of him. He made out the female figure within just as he heard her take a step toward him.

She was as nude as he. Her skin was the color of brass, her eyes molten steel. She did not smile, she did not speak. She stepped forward, radiating heat, encasing them both in clouds of steam. Curiosity became wanting and lust, and they consumed him. He tried to reach out, to step toward her, but was held fast by his shackles. They chafed and cut his skin, sending droplets of blood to the ice that was somewhere below him. She stepped forward again, looking him over from top to bottom. Thunk’s desire burned his blood as she became easier to see. She was completely hairless, and the rivulets of water condensing and cascading down her lithe form made her skin shine as if it were actual brass.

Thunk raged against the shackles, straining to be free, until she placed the tips of her fingers on his chest. Pleasure danced on his skin like lightning. He shuddered with the sensation, letting it consume him. She stepped forward again, ans rested both of her hands on his hips. He shuddered again in pleasure, sagging against his shackles. She looked him in the eyes, and a voice sang in his mind.

“Do you want me?”

Thunk cried out into the endless steam. Yes, he wanted her with everything he had left. Her lips curled into a small smile, and she pressed her body against his. He moaned as she writhed and squirmed against him until it felt like she was burrowing inside of his skin.

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Thunk’s eyes snapped open. The buzzing sound was gone, replaced with clicking, clacking, hissing, and whirring from his left.

“Success!” The carnie looked gleeful. “It works!”

Thunk jumped off of the stool and was headed to the door when he noticed that the noises were coming with him. He looked down at his left arm, made of spinning gears, creaking joints, and hissing pistons. His fingers clacked as he flexed them. There was some sort of release valve near where it was mounted on his shoulder. “How… how does it work, Mr. Weaver?” He couldn’t tear his gaze from it.

“Are you familiar with the strong force that holds subatomic particles together in the shape of atoms?” Weaver was obviously pleased with himself.

“Yeah. Todd talks about science a lot.”

Weaver’s face fell, and he stammered out, “Steam. It runs on Steam.”

A few updates.

Today is a writing day. Look for the results in the later today, and on the short fiction page on Monday.

My phone is currently off. Billing issues with Verizon. This should be remedied soon.

I haven’t really moved much furniture around since moving day. I haven’t set up my shelves, I haven’t made an attempt to set up any kind of office, and I haven’t moved anything more out of the storage unit. I’m living out of the apartment as if it were a hotel room. Committing to a space must be scaring me. I need to face this fear, and conquer it.

In other apartment news, my neighbors are noisy, and by the smell of the hallway, smoke. This is good for me, as playing music and/or movies will be far less likely to bring about noise complaints.

Connecting to the intertubes with my computron from the apartment is spotty. Apparently, the landlords are regretting their choice to go with TDS Metrocom. Well, duh. So, I get to ponder which ISP I’m going to allow to traffic-shape my packets once I have the cash. In other digital news, I’ll be putting Windows back on my laptop.

New job rocks my socks. Argyle style. Getting money in exchange for work is satisfying. Also, they’re having me write. Brilliant, I tells ya.

Answering the “why” and not filling the silence are things I’ve worked on before, and am working on again. Challenge after challenge after challenge. I hope I’m still up for them.