Ramblin’ along, heading nowhere in particular…

Today is a better day.

Perspective. Today is all about perspective. It’s been a background process, figuring this out.

“Oh, the important still forces its way through your thick skull when it comes down to the wire, doesn’t it, Herod?” – Madness, the Teacher

I remembered writing that phrase less angrily. But, then, Madness was being a bit defensive.

I have an awesome job that is paying my bills, will allow me to catch up financially, and to finally stop playing catch-up. I have fun at my job, doing something that I love to do.

I am well loved.

Everything can be taken care of, all I need to do is give issues the time they deserve, and work to get them done. Finishing moving stuff into my apartment, re-discovering my spiritual center, getting a coherent and logical budget set up (after the holidays, thankyouverymuch), reviewing my writing goals, setting up timelines to finish pieces, and getting them done. Hell, I’m already hitting a Sci-Fi con in January, and plan to have somewhere between 5 and 10 books to sell there. I may even end up on some panels. CRAZINESS! *flails arms wildly about*

Oh, and looks like Everybody Reads is sold out of The Remembrance, so until they order more, they’ll only be available at full price through Lulu, Amazon, or your local book store. I’ll have them for $15 at ConFusion, and at subsequent conventions. :)

Since May 6, 2006, there have been 89 copies of The Remembrance printed. As far as I know, I have the only copy that hasn’t been sold to someone. That’s not half bad for a first novel, self-published, and self-marketed. I best get back on that horse.

Where was that letter that I was going to send to Shaman Drum in Ann Arbor…

Bah, humbug.

I’m done with energy drinks for the time being. I should never have gone back to them, or to pop, but I have. Now I need to wean myself off of pop again (or soda, if you’re either pretentious or not living in Michigan). I’m indulging in root beer today, because I need to feel good. Same reason that I’m at Theio’s, honestly. Comfort environment.

Got about two hours of sleep last night thanks to the dry heaving. Looks like Monster did not play nice with my stomach-to-lung-acid-hatefulness, and so I was choking on bile for much of the night. The choking triggered coughing, which triggered my gag reflex, and old lung butter from the bronchitis days made the escape.

Good to have it out, I suppose. However, I had to go back to the cough syrup with codeine just to get to sleep, and ended up calling off of work today. Woke up at 12:30 PM, so now my sleep schedule is b0rked beyond reason. Argh.

, it seems that my laptop and last.fm has some sort of familial feud, of the shooting-over-the-river having-no-teeth variety. I fear that I may have to abandon it, as several versions have refused to start up. Could be the machine, though.

On that note, this laptop may be destined for eBay or craigslist. As time goes on, it seems to be fitting less and less of what I need out of a laptop. So, we’ll see.

I am -really- trying to enjoy the holidays. I’m not sure how well it’s working. At least I have food in me now.

Oh, yeah. Still not writing. *grinds teeth*

Weekly Word Count

Next little installment of Adam’s name is up! It’s here!

Word count graphics are fixed! They’re here!

In the middle of my pseudo-quarantine due to excessive coughing and throat that’s hanging in ribbons, I bring you the Weekly Word Count! I’m continuing to make little tweaks to the web site as I update and add bits that I’ve written.

Any comments and constructive criticism are always welcome. :) Also, I’m thinking of re-writing the first five or so chapters of The Remembrance, to make it a bit more palatable to potential agents and publishers. I worry, though, about losing the freedom that I have publishing through Lulu. I feel like I’m riding the front wave of a change in how information is purchased and disseminated. I have control, and I own the rights. And yet, if you want to buy my book from Borders, you’re going to run into problems, because my distribution house is owned by Barnes & Noble.

So, I dunno. Again, any input is appreciated.

Adam’s Name

[Carnival] Pressure Cooker

The carnie had Thunk sit down on a well-worn workshop stool. He rummaged through one of many drawers in an enormous wooden dresser. It had six columns of drawers, filled the shed from floor do ceiling, and shined with polish. “Got to make sure you’re actually alive, otherwise this won’t work.” He came back to Thunk brandishing a magnifying glass. “Let me see that shoulder.”

Thunk spun on the stool so that his left side faced the carnie. Now that he was distracted from carrying out Todd’s orders, he noticed that the man seemed familiar. He wore a black cotton hoodie sweatshirt with faded patches sewn on in random locations. His hair was brown, and just wavy enough to almost be curly. On the back of his left hand was a tattoo of eight arrows radiating from a single point. On his right was one of a gear. “Have we met before?”

The carnie squinted at Thunk’s shoulder meat through the magnifying glass. As he looked, a faint buzzing sound filled the shed. “Plenty of cellular activity. No healing or white cell freak-out. As if the arm was still attached. Which is clearly not the case.” The man blinked a few times and looked up at Thunk. “Did you say something?”

Thunk shook his head. “Never mind.”

The man went back to the monstrous wooden dresser and replaced the magnifying glass He closed the drawer and started digging in a pile of wooden boxes underneath a workbench. “Time is funny, Thunk. I mean, you should know that, of all people.” He pulled a long box out from the pile and blew off a layer of dust. The top of the box was ornately burned with a very simple label: Arm, Left. “It’s all stretchy.”

“How do you know my name?” The buzzing in the shed was getting louder, and Thunk really wanted to be outside, looking for Sheila.

“Fame’s funny, too.” The carnie opened the box, and Thunk heard something whispering against the red felt lining. “Two people, like us, we’ve probably run into each other dozens of times, and didn’t even know it.” He hefted the metal contraption in the box, and brought it over to Thunk.

He looked from the mess of gears and pistons and dials to the carnie and to the shed’s door. “I really should be out there, looking for Shei-”

The carnie pushed one end up against Thunk’s shoulder meat, and twisted. Thunk’s body spasmed and his eyes rolled back into his head. The gears started to turn and the pistons began to pump. “Oh, yeah. I should tell you: this is gonna feel pretty strange.”

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Thunk opened his eyes onto a frozen wasteland. Dunes of snow gave way to cracked ice and gray skies. The wind blew, and he could feel it lash at his exposed skin. He looked down at himself, only mildly shocked that he was nude. His left arm was still missing. His right wrist, both ankles, and neck were locked in steel shackles that had no chains. Thunk looked around, seriously doubting that he’d find Sheila here. He tried to step forward, only to find the ankle shackle holding him in place. He was trapped.

The ice under him began to rumble and shake. Thunk knelt on the ice, shielding his face with his arm. The cold below him shot into his knees, making him shiver and convulse immediately. In front of him, chunks of ice exploded into the air amidst billowing clouds of steam. Fear crept into the edges of Thunk’s mind, something that should not have been possible. Steam rolled over him, driving away the cold and encasing him in a layer of warm wetness. He stood again, the pale echo of fear turning into a pale echo of curiosity. He squinted into the steam ahead of him. He made out the female figure within just as he heard her take a step toward him.

She was as nude as he. Her skin was the color of brass, her eyes molten steel. She did not smile, she did not speak. She stepped forward, radiating heat, encasing them both in clouds of steam. Curiosity became wanting and lust, and they consumed him. He tried to reach out, to step toward her, but was held fast by his shackles. They chafed and cut his skin, sending droplets of blood to the ice that was somewhere below him. She stepped forward again, looking him over from top to bottom. Thunk’s desire burned his blood as she became easier to see. She was completely hairless, and the rivulets of water condensing and cascading down her lithe form made her skin shine as if it were actual brass.

Thunk raged against the shackles, straining to be free, until she placed the tips of her fingers on his chest. Pleasure danced on his skin like lightning. He shuddered with the sensation, letting it consume him. She stepped forward again, ans rested both of her hands on his hips. He shuddered again in pleasure, sagging against his shackles. She looked him in the eyes, and a voice sang in his mind.

“Do you want me?”

Thunk cried out into the endless steam. Yes, he wanted her with everything he had left. Her lips curled into a small smile, and she pressed her body against his. He moaned as she writhed and squirmed against him until it felt like she was burrowing inside of his skin.

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Thunk’s eyes snapped open. The buzzing sound was gone, replaced with clicking, clacking, hissing, and whirring from his left.

“Success!” The carnie looked gleeful. “It works!”

Thunk jumped off of the stool and was headed to the door when he noticed that the noises were coming with him. He looked down at his left arm, made of spinning gears, creaking joints, and hissing pistons. His fingers clacked as he flexed them. There was some sort of release valve near where it was mounted on his shoulder. “How… how does it work, Mr. Weaver?” He couldn’t tear his gaze from it.

“Are you familiar with the strong force that holds subatomic particles together in the shape of atoms?” Weaver was obviously pleased with himself.

“Yeah. Todd talks about science a lot.”

Weaver’s face fell, and he stammered out, “Steam. It runs on Steam.”

Weekly Word Count

Lo and behold, the next installment of Adam’s Name is up on my short fiction page. From the site:

“Adam loses himself in blue eyes and lace-covered skin as he flees the strangeness that continues to pierce holes in his reality. He runs to the Goth/Industrial club a few floors above the last bar, and ends up on the roof of a parking garage. Alcohol, making out, a gun shot, and a bonfire under the constellation Orion.”

I’ve also started a thread in the Google group to discuss the strangeness that Adam keeps running into. Feel free to share theories, observations, complaints, offers of gold doubloons, whatever. :)

Also, though I haven’t been a part of it, the activity in the has remained steady. I highly recommend it.

I haven’t forgotten your suggestions about what to write, from that post oh-so-long-ago. Nor the meme where I owe four more people pieces of fiction. I’ll get on track one of these days. :)

Weekly Word Count

This little snippet of Adam’s Name has been one of the most difficult edits that I’ve done. But, I’ve done it, and sent it off for further review. :)

I was totally taken by surprise when I started to see posts in show up in my friends’ list again. I was pretty sure that any further writing for the story would be taken offline. I’m glad to see that I was wrong. It even looks like has taken my character Sheila, and put her through her paces. I can’t wait to see what all of this twists her into.

Instead of doing NaNoWriMo this year, I think that I’m going to set aside two hours each day to work on current projects. If I can do it for a month, maybe I can do it afterwards, too.

Weekly Word Count

Yesterday I got through that stuck spot on Adam’s Name. I’ve got a couple more passes to do to tighten it up, and then I’m sending it off to , if she has time to look at it. :) I think that it’ll be worthy to put up on the site, and then I’ll get to move on to the Chicago piece. *squee* Demons!

I’m thinking of taking down the RTF versions of my short fiction. Anybody have an opinion on that? Does anyone use them?

Weekly Word Count – back from the dead!

This small part of Adam’s name is taking me forever to edit. I’m adding a few pages to it, just about doubling its length, because it needs more. ( Thanks ) I’ve got a decent start on it, but I feel stuck. Should I bring the girl in early, or should they run into each other on the dance floor? Should there be more foreshadowing about the story that Adam is getting involved in? Or should there just be more about how he feels apart from everything?

This is the first encounter that has Adam really and truly just observing someone else’s story. He’s slipped into another fictional world, one in which a girl gets initiated into a sisterhood of witches. Adam will only witness a very small slice of the story, but it will be enough to send him on his way. Since Adam’s telling the story, putting more emphasis on his separation from the world around him makes the story uninteresting… why should the reader care? And Adam certainly loses himself in this girl as he tries to escape into the drunk game again… maybe he shouldn’t be so okay with leaving at the end.

I might just need to fill the space with words and see what comes out. :)